Sunday, August 14, 2011

The Laughter of a Joker

You have often seen me laughing; my mask has made you laugh...

There’s a world beneath the paint, under those lines, behind the scarf

Do I sell laughter? Well… don’t you buy it from me?

Do I bring out the child in you or do you for yourself see?

When teardrops blob the blue of my eyes and pain scars my red nose,

My tap dance and juggling entertain you and you pay for my shows

When the stage is wrapped up and you go home, leaving half-eaten popcorn...

I sigh and smile and laugh, the stage spheres me in and my art is worn

In the silence of the twilight, my laughter shoots spears...

What dry up in my face paint are reminiscences of your tears.


Saturday, February 26, 2011

Fall




Couples go to Hauz Khas
Supposedly there are somethings
Romantic about the canvas
There... something that clings...

The horizon is beautiful and sublime
And I see them walk hand in hand
Along the ruins that cry of tales of time
Of the past, of the water and the sand.

I went not with you, since you don't exist.
I sat on the ancient blocks so sad and pale
And wondered surprisingly, about Jesus Christ
Thinking of his pain that is put up for sale.

I stared at the Horizon as the day drowned down,
Of things here and there, great and small
I thought of everything but you, you moron...
And that was Eve's fall.


Tuesday, February 22, 2011

RED WINE AND SUNSET BLUES

When sparkling fluid flows from your eyes

And the scent of a sorrowed sigh settles,

Smile away your diamonds and rubies

Walk away from your garden of melancholies.

It is time for red wine and sunset blues...

When you see laughter in your friends' eyes

For that is what life is about

To rise and sleep, and sleep and rise.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Of diamonds and other jewels treasured...

In your familiarity, I learnt to know myself.
We grew up in kisses, smiles, sobs and fights.
In every moment, I took a part of you... Gave a bit of me...
Our souls trotted on the macadam pavements, clinging to each other.
We touched rainbows passing by...
We blowed off clouds floating by...
The song of the nightingale lulled us to sleep...
Sleepless nights made us weep...
You taught me how to love
I loved you back with all I had.
We recited Macbeth as we walked hand in hand.
We emptied glasses of wine, but were intoxicated with ourselves...
You grazed your thumb against my lips
And I pulled your shirt.
Rain blessed us and we found each other.
The sun it was, or the fates, or the wind or the gods...
Envy it was.
Tried to tear us apart... but what failure!
Cause I still treasure your fragments and smile at you in the morning dew.
Can still smell your breath in my hair.
You still find me when it rains.
We still look at each other... through the drops of diamonds in our eyes.

Friday, November 13, 2009

TOGETHER


Come along, dearest

Lets swim to the moon.

We've had enough

Our love shall not die soon...

This world isn't for us

Its crowded with lies and lust.

This isn't for us, for love

Here is oxidised and rust.

But oh, no more...

We leave tonight.

Fra from this futile land,

To get us what is right.

We both are enough and more

To live, to learn and teach.

Tonight, we shall swim to the moon,

Please, park near the beach.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

NOWHERE

“You are NOT going anywhere!”

“I shall go anywhere and everywhere and you are NOT going to stop me. You can’t rather.”

“We give birth to children and take care of them and grow them up to face this in the end! Oh Jesus!”

“You gave birth to me because you were interested. I never asked you to. Rather you never asked me if I wanted to be born. Now in case you think that you gave birth to me so I should feel all so faithful and thankful and do everything that you want, well, let me tell you that’s just not possible.”

“What rubbish she speaks! The very satan in her voice!”

“Oh no. that’s not exactly like that, you know…everything that doesn’t suit you, needn’t necessarily be termed DEVILISH and SATANIC. I have my own ideas and thoughts…those which you shall never understand. So lets drop the thing and do as we like. Alright?”

“Jennifer! I shall speak to your father soon about your inexcusable behaviour. Be sure about it.”

“Oh yes I bet. Since you know logically you can’t possibly do anything much about it, so you must ask someone else to do it for you. And what difference is your husband going to make in all of it?”

“Jennifer! You don’t speak like that about your father!”

“I really wouldn’t...if you wouldn’t compel me to. I love him too – he’s my father. And I love you too – but it doesn’t make any difference, does it? You damn care and what you only care about is what people will talk about. So WHY are you bothered about me? Or is it that this week no gossiping party being held, you are after my life?
You think that’ll take your time?”

“Why are you like this? Why can’t you be a good child and listen to me, to us, to your parents?”

“Because ‘good’ for me and you isn’t the same anymore.”

“What is good by God and Religion, is really Good. What is not, is bad. Its as simple as that!”

“Alas! It isn’t!”

“Look child…I’m your mother. Whatever I say, must benefit you. You must take care of us and make us happy as we have done for you…”

“Sorry. The investment you put in to the business called your ‘Daughter’ isn’t going to bring out any profits.”

“What?”

“I’m not a bank or a business. I don’t have a deal with you. You gave birth to me because you wanted a child. I’m just that. Now besides being a child, I am a human being too. And please let me be one. Mother, have you ever seen any animal nagging their children as human parents do?”

“We are not animals. We are social animals.”

“Exactly. And so, you rather sacrifice your children to society rather than vice versa. Right?”

“Oh God!!! Look dear, I only want you to be happy…to settle down well in life…to not face unnecessary troubles…”

“Then you wouldn’t have been nagging me right now. I am 22 for God’s sake! You have given me education, you have taught me what u wanted to…God has given me brains…I understand. I can think, I can live. May I live my life? Would you go back to yours?”

“You must be taught a proper lesson. You better listen to what we say or we stop all your financial facilities. You have tried my patience girl…now I’m serious.”

“You must be. All parents blackmail their kids when they are serious. Anyway, you needn’t worry. I shall not be blackmailed. I can fill my own tummy. You may stuff yours as you like.”

“What impudence!”

“Self confidence and dependence, mother. Everything that you taught me.”

“What are you going to do?”

“Get a job in a call centre, thanks for teaching me English. I’ll stay in a PG. I think the call centre job will be enough to pay the rent and my college fees. I can also give tuitions if I need to. Don’t worry Mom, wont do anything IMMORAL. And certainly won’t blackmail anyone like you.”

SLAP!

“Get out of my house immediately!”

“Bye Mom. I wish we would understand each other and I wish you would believe that I do love and respect you in spite of my language.”

“I do not want to see your face ever. You may go to hell!”

SLAM!

“Oh Jesus! Save my child…what have I done?!! What will she do?...How could I…”

“VROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMM…CRACK, CLASH, SLASH, DUMP, BUMP.”

SILENCE.

DING DONG, TRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGG…

“Hullo?”

“Mrs. D’Souza, your daughter has had an accident just in front of your building.
The car came crashing on her. Its an old man, driving in a drunken state…we don’t know if your daughter is alright…I think you should come immediately…
………..

Saturday, September 20, 2008

LOVE

this is devoted to the person i am absolutely in love with. he has made my life as beautiful as it is right now.

THE WIND BLOWS IN MEASURES HIGH...

AND SOOTED CLOUDS RENT THE SKY...

I LOOK OUT OF THE WINDOW

AND THINK OF YOU IN UNENDING FLOW...

THE AIR AROUND SMILES AT YOUR THOUGHT,

THE RAIN BANGS AND REMINDS ME A LOT...

I SEE YOUR EYES AND THEY SPILL INTO MINE,

THE BLACK SKY TWINKLES, THE MOON DOES SHINE...

I STARE AT IT AND WONDER IF YOU

ARE ALSO STARING AT IT AS I DO...

I WONDER IF YOU ARE THINKING OF ME...

I SMILE IN TEARS SINCE YOU MUST BE..

ITS A HEAVENLY LIFE THAT I LIVE WITH YOU...

LETS LIVE FOREVER... AS THATS WHAT WE WANT TO DO...